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Home is where the Heart is

Published June 25, 2012 by chey01144

Home is where the Heart is

Beginning to get the eeks* about this place. I’m super irritated and I just really miss home. I started comparing things here to back home but it’s gotten to a point where I think I sound annoying and whiny and maybe a tad bit disrespectful. England is a great place.. I like my friends, I like the way somethings work, I don’t like the fact that they’re not up to date with movies, I love the dialect, I don’t like the racism issues and I love the fashion; But the weather. Oh My this weather ! I HATE it ! Absolutely horrendous. I really can’t wait to visit St Lucia ): .. OH OH ! And speaking of movies, I am getting sick and tired of going to watch a movie and being told that the movie is 15 and over and I can’t go in -_- … I’m practically 18; But apparently I’m lying and my actual age is 12. No Biggy though, to me it’s sort of a compliment. I guess I’m ageing pretty damn good ! yay* to that.

Sigh* A little more patience I guess?

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Out of Element

Published June 15, 2012 by chey01144

Out of Element

You know when you know something is wrong but you just can’t seem to quit it. I mean you hear all this stuff about if it’s meant to be it’ll be, if its true it’ll come back or sometimes you have to move past to see better or ignore or whatever it is they say. I’m trying to go according to this little voice in my head that says that things will work out according to “the script”. The script ofcourse is a fairytale. You like the romance novels where in the end ‘true love’ overcomes all and finds it’s home. Unfortunately for me I have no idea the plotting or the climax or the breaking points or commercials of this supposed “script” written customary to me, so I go along, according to my own script, which by all means favours me. A little reality thinking here and there for the sake of a less dramatic ending or perhaps an even more interesting one.

I’ve realized there’s always a choice, the outcome however isn’t exactly your fault. Some circumstances of situations and our emotions toward them are sometimes beyond our control. The more you force yourself to be something or someone that you’re not, doesn’t always make you feel better or protect you from the truth or your want for revenge, but rather it taints the soul; You as an individual. First it becomes a
“just this once”, then it becomes an “it can’t be so bad” and the stage more severe to the point where your ability to care and think fairly and with sense fades and your guilty conscience begins to weaken.

To what point have I gotten? I can’t exactly say, but I know for a fact that my guilty conscience is still intact and as much as I try to ignore it and the warnings and cautions, I know good and well using my heart is not suppose to be an option. At this point in time at least. I don’t know what exactly I’m trying to prove. and even if I did, then what? Fate, for those who believe in it, is just going to have it’s way in the end.

Neat is Sexy

Published June 14, 2012 by chey01144

Can I Hold Your Hand ?

Went out tonight (Cinema) to watch ‘The Pact’. I guess the guys were in the mood for a good scary one. Unfortunately that didn’t turn out to be the exact case of the movie *bummer* but was still a good night.

I couldn’t help but admire one of the guy’s hands though. Yeah, you must have thought for a second, “what?”. I mean that wasn’t my first time meeting him or us hanging out together but they’re so neat I couldn’t help but notice it for the one hundredth time. It’s … a bit weird; if I’m using the correct expression. His nails was cut short, clean, smooth, soft hands and to me that is a major turn on. It may sound weird but I can’t stop thinking about them. I personally think that’s sexy and attractive ! Seriously though, how many guys does one know pays attention to the appearance of his hands and fingers so much or so often. 1? 2? .. The point is, not many. But when you do meet them, trust you’ll probably be as amazed as I am.

Never Say Never

Published June 13, 2012 by chey01144

Never Say Never

The Fray
“Never Say Never”

Some things we don’t talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
While we don’t know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
[x2]

Picture, you’re the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
To steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don’t know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before

Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
[x2]

We’re pulling apart and coming together again and again
We’re growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
[x4]

A Bit of a Bundle of Emotions

Published June 12, 2012 by chey01144

A Bit of a Bundle of Emotions

It’s been 6 months since I left home. What a 6 months it has been. But it’s all becoming an experience that I’m trying to make as memorable as I can. Made a few new friends, spent an awesome amount of time with my family, experiencing the most horrible weather I have ever in my lifetime and also having an almost of a huge crush on a certain someone .

Tall, Hazel Blue-ish eyes, Blonde hair and a Sexy deep voice *Yum*. Oh and his Accent *Yum x2* Being bilingual makes it even sexier…
умереть *hint hint* … Need I say more ?

I miss St Lucia though. My friends and my family mainly, then my bed, then the sun. It’s practically summer yet it’s been raining almost none stop. Could make a bigger difference if only there was someone to at least cuddle with. You know like, fall asleep in their arms and plant pecks on their cheeks all the while enjoying the horrendous cold weather. Just someone to make it all seem.. Not So Bad After All.

Either way it goes, Complain I shall not (: